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[kyrene]

I try to think back sometimes to the foundation of certain elements of my personality. I was always a very honest person with my opinions. Opinionated is a good way of putting it. When I was younger I had a few teachers comment to my parents "Make sure she's fine with her peers disagreeing with her" because I was so frightfully honest with how I felt and stated it in a very exacting manner.

I don't like being a bitch or an asshole. If it fulfills a greater good I swallow it and just plow through. I'd rather people get along and get shit done versus people be at each others' throats and somehow manage to accomplish shit.

At some point I came to realize that honesty was the best policy. Maybe it was due to that whole long faith crisis I had which I had kept from pretty much everyone in the community until it cost me my presidency of Hellenion years ago. Maybe it was due to the amount of times I had spent biting my tongue for the sake of everyone "getting along". Maybe I just felt that Apollo had a few things to teach myself about not lying and knowing yourself.

Or maybe I'm just an Irish redhead from NY and "adopted Italian" who has been under a lot of stress lately and my normal brain to mouth filter, however thin, has gone buh-bye.

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[ravendreamer.livejournal.com]

I often get the same sorts of flack......I atrtibute it to Apollo really. I try to tell the truth in all cases (although often I bite my tougue to keep the peace)

[theblackscorpio.livejournal.com]

Well, if you are a Scorpio, you are muchly advised to be truthful to you. Most Scorpios have this "I'm saying the fuck how I see this, and if you can't deal with it, GTFO" - attitude. It's a trademark. If you're not a Scorpio, it's still better than, well, not being this way ...

[kyrene-myste.livejournal.com]

Taurus. But with all of the Fire and Water in my chart I come off as Scorp.

[theblackscorpio.livejournal.com]

I see :)
Don't let anybody tell you shit, least of all Scorpios ;)))))))))))))))))))))))

[owl-clan.livejournal.com]

Oh come on- I have a bad habit of telling my feelings to people without the usual wuss-assed censor mechanisms that so many people need. I don't believe in tap-dancing around other people's comfort zones, least of all modern "neo" pagans and the rest of the types you meet in the world Occult. There's too much ego and stupidity in the world occult to help it any by creating a "wuss zone" which will only get you taken advantage of. I'm proud to have pissed off the people I've pissed off, and look forward to pissing off more. You know the real reason why? Because the best friends I've ever had were people that I either pissed off, and then befriended (showing their quality) or people that saw through the act and realized my underlying motivations. I simply won't be someone that I"m not. You should always be honest- those in your life who matter won't mind, and those who mind don't matter.

[borealin.livejournal.com]

I know that we have been going through certain initiations together, but sometimes the way our alchemy is intertwining is just flat out surreal.

I had been seriously formulating in my head a long LJ post about how I am done "going along to get along".

I have always been an honest person, but usually, in my introverted ways, I'd either keep silent or, if coaxed out of my shell, I'd softsoap my opinion in order to be kind and save peoples' feelings. I always tried to be the "nice guy", always there for friends, and I've always been a very good listener...but along the same lines, you know how the "nice guy" gets treated...and truthfully, in the way we handle people we teach them how to treat us. I don't like being a dick or an asshole, either...but now I find myself wondering how honest or how true to myself I really was being.

Some things haven't changed. I haven't thrown away the fact that I've learned that you chooses your battles wisely and that the delivery is sometimes as important as the message. But that being said, there are times when it is right and proper to verbally throttle someone with a clue-by-four. And there are some people who claim a certain level of maturity and/or enlightenment such that they oughta be able to handle it without regressing into a juvenile tantrum.

It all started when I called a GD adept an "ugly drama queen". I still think that was warranted and, although my response was not the most enlightened I've given, he got exactly what he deserved. And, frankly, I don't have time for tantrums thrown by someone of that "status".

Some will say my ego has inflated. Well...yes...it has. It has inflated to a point where I'm not shying away from making situations more difficult because someone desperately needs a swift kick in the ass. I've always been the quintessential diplomat in the past, trying to smooth it all over and make everybody happy-happy and nicey-nicey again. But nowadays, with the recent invocation of Mars in Capricorn and certain parallel alchemy on the rise, I'm putting my Ambassador's sash aside for the moment while I slip on my Boot of Authority.